Day Twenty One
The last week has been a dip into how it feels to experience our senses. What is entwined with that, and usually comes after my senses are my emotions.
Recovery has brought a world of emotion into my life. I got sober to experience the entire gamut of human emotion. This is a beautiful, powerful, and live giving experience – but my emotions can oftentimes be a bewildering, overwhelming, opaque world.
It felt like all I was feeling was EVERYTHING and when I was overwhelmed I was unable to distil anything other than the need to act. Emotions are powerful messages, but they are not always something to act upon. This would be my reasoning that I needed drink to keep me on the level.